Saturday, July 11, 2015

see the depth of my soul.
cherise my essence.
respect my mind.
my heart. my scars. my stories.
love me, for me – raw, perfectly flawed me

without doubt, i will do the same for you.
but then again.
i no longer feel anything.
wheres the love?
where are you, sir?


1:57 AM

Thursday, July 2, 2015

dear sir.

break. breaking. broke.
finally broken.

regards,
goodbye


12:15 AM

Sunday, June 14, 2015

in love: the romantic
jokes. laughs. fun. long conversations. overwhelming separation anxiety. midday naps. the best of both people.

love: when excitement starts to fade
butterflies disappear. lesser midday naps. reality sets in- tears, sadness, arguments, cattiness. the worst of both people

if two people still want each other through the rough times, thats when you know its really love. and not just being in love. cause love, its thousands little things. black. white. grey. no excuses, doubts, fear, hesitation. tireless unconditional commitment to an imperfect person. giving up the right to be right in an argument. stepping down so another can shine. faith, forgive when let down. carrying the weight of another in sickness, pain, loss. standing alongside each other. body that protects. arms to run to in midst of storm. the smile, strength when pressure. trusted confidant. endless compassion. holding hands, not to say this is mine, being possessive. but its maintaining contact between two people. speaking without words. wanting you with me. stay, dont go.

he who sees my worst but still encourages me to be my best.
he who uses "when" not "if" when talking about future together.


11:02 PM

Monday, June 8, 2015

HIS STORY...

carrying the pain as a constant reminder.
theres a reason why the walls are built so high.
taking longer than expected to bring down.
a cautious way to walk through life.
carefully noticing the surroundings.
the fall and trip, scrapes and burns were painful.
worry might not be able to get back up if ever to fall hard again.

the damage coming before it even happens.
all that can go wrong. failure.
being unreasonable, pessimistic, sad.
trying to convince its different but the reminder seeps back in.
scared of what others think. the fear of disapproval.
mistakenly investing the trust in those who took it for granted.

life bring hurt and pain.
people will disappoint.
thus being own armor until someone shows otherwise.
cause others wont protect as well as oneself.
and only oneself has the ability to break down the walls.


11:53 PM



HER STORY...

"guarded" wont be the word that first comes to others mind.
independent, confident, driven, content.
never seeking anything. never leaning in. as though living a big life.
but nobody knows the little spaces was filled with something.

fell in love like the way people do. but ultimately deep, true, miraculous love goes away.
without explanation. without retribution. left with nothing but an illusion.
broken, no longer trusting love. thus putting purpose in a person.
knowing only the low, quiet nothingness that is acceptance.
and the best things are built on the rock bottom.

leading life by the moment, hour, choice.
isn’t bitter or cynical, but realistic.
slowly the walls was the perfect safe antidote to what was feared most.
wanting to protect it. continue being reserved.
until people and intentions arent crapshoots and lies. until theres another reality.


11:47 PM

Wednesday, May 6, 2015


crunchy chocolate.


1:12 AM

Wednesday, April 15, 2015

Happy Birthday I.

if he is shorter than 5'5. he is not your man, he is your minion :)



credits to the sister for photos below.




11:49 PM